The Good, The Bad, and the Downright Unimaginable.
Wow, as I look back on the “noughties” I can honestly say life had not been dull. The good has far outweighed the bad, even though at times it would seem the fog would never lift.
Beginning with the ending of my 16 year marriage, moving to a new state yet again, and the untimely passing of my Mother in 2000 wasn’t a great start to the millennium! A move to France to begin what I can only describe as a mistake resulting in a broken engagement didn’t improve the decade’s appeal. I continued a tireless search to find My niche in the world with a fulfilling career, and there was my Dad’s diagnosis of eye cancer and his subsequent marathon surgery and recovery. My darling husband Greg lost his job to the GFC and what followed seemed at the time an endless search for a new one. We’ve Watched our children go through hard times knowing only too well you can’t make their pain go away, and just it as it seemed the decade would pass without further pain there came a real wake up call... Christmas Eve, We were informed that there was absolutely no doubt, I have Breast Cancer... Who would have thought? I have been put through what seems an endless barrage of tests to see what kind of drugs they will be using to shrink these cancers (yep 2 of 'em in the one boob!) before surgery can begin. Thank God the decade has come to an end.
Those who know me would know that I keep my pain largely to myself and most will never know that something is wrong until after it has passed and been fixed. Even then, it’s brushed aside and buried. This my dear family and friends is something I can't do this time... I will need all your support and positive thoughts to beat this but make no mistake, I will beat it!... I haven’t tormented enough people yet!
My treatment starts Friday but only after another load of tests. Apparently my cancer is HER2 positve and eostrogen positive... so at least I’m positive! Lol. Apparently that's a good thing, gives the Doctors a better range of drugs, yippee. Oh, I forgot to mention, I also have a spot on my liver... I recon it's just shit on the liver... More on that later.
Today I tried on wigs... WOW. Sunday I hope to finally choose the right one...
On that note, let’s focus on the positives of the last decade!
I have travelled a lot of the world and met some amazing people. I've seen and experienced what can only be described as truly "SHIT HOT" adventures. I have met and married the man of my dreams, my soul mate, my lobster. I have experienced and lived through 4 of our 6 children’s 18th birthdays, 3 21st‘s, both Greg’s and my 40th and countless “just because” parties. I have finally found my dream job, yes, bling!, and I’m living the dream onboard “Kidnapped”, our lovely old 42ft sloop. Greg now has a good job again and is consulting to the company that “let him go”. The only downside is it takes him away from home a lot. We are still planning our dream trip though we may need to postpone, not cancel, for a little bit. I have watched my best friend Sheryl finally walk down the aisle, and I’ve literally witnessed the birth of my grandson Dylan. I have skydived, bungied, dived many dive sites and skinny dipped in many seas of the world. I have been inside pyramids that the general public can’t access. I’ve drunk Raki with Turkish locals, sat under the Sakura sipping sake and experienced some exotic and disgusting foods. All of my adventures have had both positive and negative effects on me and this has all made me into the person you all know today, strong and positive. Let’s face it, I am a Leo and there is only one thing Leos know how to do well, FIGHT! You don’t need to worry that I am not going to crawl into a hole and hide, I know this is beatable.
So..........be strong my petals and give me your strength. I am not a religious person as you know but a little prayer or too can’t hurt... Ya just never know who’s watching or listening for that matter!
I will keep you all posted with my progress and maybe the next time you see me I will be sporting a head of dreadies...lol. ( Much to Greg’s horror. ;-p)
Oh I got a new tattoo today. Its a pacman and a pink ribbon. Those of you who don’t know what a pacman is... He's a video games character that chews up monsters, thus the cancers. I have been focusing on the pacman to eat till his little heart is content. And to those who do know pacman... He's never full. So please get behind my pacman.
Stay safe and happy 2010 and beyond, Lou xxxxxxx